Sometimes we do things that give rise to these pure, positive but fleeting feelings.
I would say that most of the time, I can enjoy them, but for the other 20%, I have this nervousness, this small but restless anxiety.
It comes from the fear of losing it. Understanding that its nature is a moving one and that sooner or later, independent of my will, it will fade.
One thing I've found helpful is to start to be aware of triggers. Activities, people, or cues in my environment that, somehow, relate to that state.
I may not understand its connection. In fact, it may be inexistent. However, by practicing these over and over again, I'll start pinpointing the sources of these feelings.
That's why I keep reading and writing. These two are ways to align me with Métis. And that's why you're reading this.
Because the feeling I get from writing yet another of these essays.
Because regardless of its size or the time of the day I write it, hitting publish is the way to keep feeding “the right wolf” and feeling what I know gets me closer to a Modern Golden Age.
I cannot express how much I relate to this!
That restlessness, I have experienced it and have a diferent understanding about it, my mechanism is meditation and exercise.