Day 98

Being alone

For most of my life, I didn’t like being alone, quite the opposite.

I would dread those moments and always try to find something to do, distracting me from being alone.

Today, after dinner, the tv and phone were off, one of my housemates went for a walk, another was in his room, and the rain was falling. I found myself alone and it felt so good, so fresh…

In these last few years, I’ve changed my relationship with myself and actually look forward to some of those moments.

I blame my girlfriend for that. I always admired the way she sought out and embraced those moments—her composure and how she recharged while doing it.

I don’t have a specific “message” or “meaning” to this rant except for the suspicion that following and praying to Métis, comes from both action and thought, being with others and being by yourself.